Make A Choice

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Ever have to make a choice and not know which one to choose?  The feeling is dreadful.

You weigh out the pros and cons… You weigh out your heart and your mind.  You wonder which choice will benefit you now and which will benefit you on the long run.  You literally cannot stomach the anticipation that it makes you want to throw up.  Your fingers get jittery.  Your heart rate starts elevating. Your mind might as well be a 10000 piece jigsaw puzzle in a box.

You drive yourself crazy.  You lay awake at night, thinking.  You sit awake during the day, thinking.

And then, you choose.

The hardest part to making a choice, is living with it.  How do we know we made the right one? How do we abide by the choices that we make?  How do we avoid relapse?

Simple. 

You ignore all possibilities.  You forget everything you thought you knew and know to be true.  You paint the ugliest, most dreadful, awful picture you can imagine if you were to make the other choice.  You convince yourself that the choice you have chosen is the only option for survival.  

Choose wisely.

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